worst.day.ever

The world is just unfair. People don't get what they deserve, and people get what they don't deserve. Some say it's fate. Some say it's luck. Some say it's a will of a deity. I believe it just happens. There's no need for a reason for everything that happens. It just happens. That's just the game of life.

Have you ever, for a moment, wanted to give up on this game? You've made a wrong move, and you find that whatever you've been working for is lost. You want to start afresh. You cannot undo this mistake. Your masterpiece has been ruined and it can never be fixed. Other people say it's not worth giving it up, and may never understand why you are giving it up. You may also never understand why you wanted to give up. Probably this means a lot to you, and now it's being taken away. It's like losing an identity. Losing who you were, and who you used to pride yourself to be. You don't have a choice. It's never coming back. It's never gonna be the same. 

Have you ever been penalized for helping a friend cover a lie, a lie which you never would have said? Have you ever had to suffer consequences, so painful as though a part of you had just died, for something which you know you never would have done?

A lie for a friend. Worth it?

At the end of the day, whatever the reason, I still lied. Only today, I realized how ugly a person can be. How loathsome, repulsive, even disgraceful I can be.