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Monday 28 March 2011

Ah it's been a long time since I'm here. Pretty ironic that the previous post was the 1st day after I stopped work.

Past 2 weeks have been quite good. I feel so relaxed and free and carefree. Frankly, I've been dreaming a lot. A LOT. Almost every night I've a dream. And some dreams were really weird, while some were quite nice heh. Also, I've been having problem sleeping at night. I can sleep almost anywhere anytime, except on my bed at bedtime. My mind just becomes so active and awake the moment I turn off the lights and lie on my bed. Maybe it's because I've been sleeping too much and too late for the past 2 weeks.

I still can't believe I went to work today. Now that I'm back at work, I intend to work until the end of this week, or maybe even next week. The main reason why I'm back at work is simply because I've no more money, and I don't want to take money from my parents. Hopefully I can pay driving lessons as much as possible.

Office seems really different now. The office's much quieter, and emptier. Firstly, I've no more friends there. Also, there were only 3 people, including me, at the office today. The job's getting lesser so less people need to come. ah I feel so lonely in the office. I feel like a lonely dood in a lonely office cubicle.

My job's also kinda changing. I used to be typing and packing. Yet for the past few times I've worked, including today, I've been calling people. Calling them to request for payment since their previous payment failed. Also, since I'm using the phone most of the time, I'll have to pick up the phone and now I've to solve the problems these people have too. Sometimes it's the fault of my colleague who failed to solve it and the person's really unhappy but I get scolded.

Gah today had one of the worst ever parent caller. Worst teacher caller too. The teacher wasn't even bothered to understand what I was saying, and merely wanted to know what to do. After explaining to her, all she ask was "so what you want?" After explaining to her again, all she says is "SO WHAT YOU WANT?" And she also said "I never hope to hear from you again." The more I think about it, the more frustrated I get. AAh seriously, theses unreasonable people who can't be bothered about others. They think they're the only ones having a headache. Yet they fail to realise that the poor dood behind the phone is frantically typing away in search of answers too and asking around trying to help them. I mean, c'mon, I'm as clueless as you. What's worse is I've to bear with them and answer them in a nice tone. I think one of these days I'm gonna tell someone off. These people are seriously monsters.

Anyone has any private driving instructor to introduce to me at SSDC(the one at woodlands)? The driving center has an earlier test date compared to CDC at Ubi so I intend to go SSDC for my practical exam, hopefully before I enlist. OR ELSE it's gonna be so SOo troublesome.


Was here at 21:32

Monday 7 March 2011

Day 1 after I've stopped work. I actually do intend to go back sometime soon if possible when I'm bored or rested enough. Well, we'll see how things go.

I'm quite confused about the whole university thing, their modules, degrees and all. Sometimes you've to go through the system to understand it. Just like JC, I didn't understand the H2 H1 thing until I've been through JC. Yet this time, if I do not understand the university system, I'm really afraid I'll make a wrong decision. Not that I've many choices, but I really do not want to regret my choice. Some may see me as picky or irritating, but well, that's just me. Choosing a university and a course is a pretty big decision to me, so I gotta make it a good one! Man, I gotta talk to some experts soon.

I realised most of my posts don't have much about what I do. I realised I don't really like to talk about details about my day and how I've spent it, but I've been saying more about my thoughts and all. Ah just a random discovery.

See I didn't talk about what I did today! And it's not on purpose! I only realised after I've finished typing this whole thing.

Oh and Mr Bean, you know the soya milk thing, has really really yummy pearls! Really! Go try it!


Was here at 22:43

Saturday 5 March 2011

Man I'm disappointed. Utterly utterly disappointed in myself.

My results ain't hopeless, yet I was hoping for more. I was looking forward to the day I could finally be proud of myself, and my parents being proud of me. Ah well.


Today could have been the most most most disappointing day of my life so far. I think it could have been because I've never ever worked so hard for something and wanted something so badly.

I've been thinking, could coming to JC actually be a mistake? Could I be over-estimating my abilities? I really wonder...


Ah well now I guess I'll just have to choose whatever course I want. Yet frankly, I don't know what I want. I somehow picture future Gabriel to be corporate Gabriel.

What do I want?


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