Man I'm disappointed. Utterly utterly disappointed in myself.

My results ain't hopeless, yet I was hoping for more. I was looking forward to the day I could finally be proud of myself, and my parents being proud of me. Ah well.

Today could have been the most most most disappointing day of my life so far. I think it could have been because I've never ever worked so hard for something and wanted something so badly.

I've been thinking, could coming to JC actually be a mistake? Could I be over-estimating my abilities? I really wonder...

Ah well now I guess I'll just have to choose whatever course I want. Yet frankly, I don't know what I want. I somehow picture future Gabriel to be corporate Gabriel.

What do I want?